Kate Lawler on early motherhood, winning Big Brother and being present for her daughter

Kate chats to radio favourite and bestselling author Kate Lawler about her journey to motherhood, from reality TV star to party-mad DJ, as well as reflecting on her time on Big Brother 20 years later.

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KATE LAWLER: I genuinely did fear going into "Big Brother" because the psychologist said to me, you've got a pretty stable life, and I feel like you've got a good job, and family, and friends, and I don't think there's anything missing in your life. And I was like, 70,000 pounds [INAUDIBLE].


KATE LAWLER: I'd love that money so I could buy a flat. After "Big Brother," there was a huge rush of jobs and work, and then that kind of dried up by the next series. And then you're like, what am I going to do now? And I took it upon myself to learn to DJ and did that for a few years. My family and friends were really pushing me to stay in London.

They were like, don't go to Birmingham, we'll miss you. And I'm like, I had to do what I thought was best for myself, my mental health, my physical health, my career, and so I took that leap of faith, and moved to Birmingham, and started working in radio, and dropped the DJ, and became the wholesome version of myself that I knew was inside me all along.

They are huge decisions you have to make, that something has to give. And you're never going to regret-- like, you're replaceable on a TV show that you say no to, but you're not replaceable at home. The amount of parents that I've spoken to, from friends to family members that have-- since I spoke so candidly on social media from the very newborn days and since I released the book, who have come to me and said, I felt exactly the same.

And I said, with who? And they were like, oh, my first. And I said, but you didn't tell me that, we didn't know that. Why didn't you tell any of us? Oh, because I felt bad because nobody else felt like that. And it's wrong for parents to shy away from telling or being pricked from being honest about how they're feeling if they're going through a hard time. But you need to normalize the feelings that you might not enjoy every aspect of parenting in those newborn days. It's OK.

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