Armie Hammer On Cannibalism & Abuse Accusations That Shut Him Out Of Hollywood: “I’m Grateful For Every Single Bit Of It”

Armie Hammer is opening up about the accusations of BDSM and cannibalism and saying he is “grateful” for the lived experience.

The Call Me By Your Name actor broke his silence years after private conversations surfaced, where Hammer engaged with fans talking about his fetishes.

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“Whatever it was that people said, whatever it was that happened, I’m now at a place in my life where I’m grateful for every single bit of it,” Hammer said on the Painful Lessons podcast.

He continued, “I’m actually now at a place where I’m really grateful for it because where I was in my life before all of that stuff happened to me I didn’t feel good I never felt satisfied I never had enough I never was in a place where I was happy with myself where I had self-esteem. I never knew how to give myself love. I never knew how to give myself self-validation but I had this job where I was able to get it from so many people that I never had to learn how to give it to myself.”

On the cannibalism allegations, the actor said, “People called me a cannibal. Like I ate people! What???? You know what you have to do to be a cannibal? You have to eat people!”

Hammer was also accused of abuse, which propelled him to reflect and start a program, adding, “It was an ego death, a career death. A neutron bomb went off in my life. It killed off [everything].”

Following all the allegations and accusations, Hammer said his mental health suffered.

“There were a lot of times when I thought I can’t take this anymore,” Hammer said. “I was getting hate…so it just went right in… there was a time I was standing at the shore and I swam out really far and just laying there..a half-assed suicide attempt…But I thought I couldn’t do that to my kids.”

Hammer admits that his Hollywood career is “nowhere now” and noted that he’s creating his “own sandbox” where he plans to write a screenplay.

Watch the podcast in full below.

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